Read on only if you are willing to take full responsibility for your life and well-being, knowing that it will not be an easy road. That sometimes it will hurt almost unbearably. You will feel lost, restless, abandoned.
Only if you are done living from fear and insecurity and feeling uncomfortable on a regular basis, read on. If you want real, lasting change in your life.
My experience is that as I became more conscious and acted less from my learned conditioning, things did not get easier. That initially I started feeling more, including the dips, full of emotions, more than before. Not always pleasant, with much inner and also external rejection.
That I began to see more, patterns in myself, conditioned behavior of others, my own behavior. And there was no turning back. And as I changed, my environment adapted, or vice versa. I gained new friends, lost contact with old friends. Jobs no longer fit, partners no longer fit, hobbies no longer fit. Sometimes nothing fit anymore and I was in a black hole. But the new always suited the new Kees. Wonderful how that was always the case. And it just happened. I only had to observe. Which, of course, I didn’t always do in the beginning. Then I was still busy checking.
Until my BodyMind felt safer with all that more feeling and more awareness. Then came more frequent and deeper peace. A benevolent tranquility. What a way to go, that“project Kees”!
“A mind expanded does not retract”
