I use my senses mainly to find my way in the outside world.
I use the input to be able to use my brain, with everything I know about that outside world, to form a conceptual, internalized perception of my outside world. To get a sense of security from where. And act accordingly.Does it feel safe, look safe, sound safe, taste safe, smell safe? According to my previous safety experiences.
This form of security assumes what my thinking does with raw perception. Based on experiences from my past. Now I know that my mind filters and distorts perception. So, for my safety, quite a risk. If I have created certain filters through trauma then my safety is already in question. What to do.
What if I could perceive the input as raw data, that is, unfiltered by the brain. Using the senses as the original input. That I could feel if it is ok or not ok without intervention of the mind. That requires and conscious feeling. Feeling that does not determine, label, name, order. But feel what it feels like. Real feeling. Inside. That requires attention in a different way.
If this real feeling is underdeveloped in me or not accessible at all, then I can only “false feeling,” “thinking feeling” through the filters of my trauma. So I will have to consciously practice that other feeling. To experience safety within on an animal level. To experience a direct feeling rather than indirect feeling.
Sometimes indirect feeling is based on the reaction of others. That’s a step beyond thinking-feeling.
