Everything changes. nothing stays the same, everything is in motion. no motion is dead. If I attach importance to the quality of something or someone, then I attach importance to something temporary, something impermanent, will disappear. Then I am always dealing with parting and a kind of mourning. Then I have to detach in my mind. Synaptic connections in my brain detach. And attachment is fundamentally my need to connect, to be connected. To regulate my system. Unattached is disregulation. My perception is permanent. What I perceive is always changing. My thoughts are also fleeting, intangible, without permanence. As are my ideas, my conclusions and analyses. Every moment I perceive new things so that thought results from the past have no permanence in the future. Nuances are minute. If I am afraid enough then conservatism will be stronger. because change asks me to let go of something, to lift some kind of anchor, and then to be unanchored for a while during the trnsformation. not necessarily to stay adrift in the boat metaphor but to be the outside the safe known harbor for a while. if I am internally connected then I am less bothered by this. if I am externally connected then this is much more exciting. and the bangenr or the less transformation experience I have, the more conservative I will be. Then my bodymind will fight like a lion until the arc of tension between the new reality and my inner fixed idea (idealization) about that reality becomes too great and the arc snaps. Crisis. Storm. Unanchored. Adrift.